Thursday, November 10, 2011
I still love him, but i dont know what to do?
My ex and I have been broken up for 10 months, and im still not over him. He lived 4 hours away from me, but he lives were some of my family lives, so i went there often, and during all of summer. thats how we met, one summer i was there. we spent everyday together when i was there, and when i was away we would call each other and talk for at least an hour a day. He became my best friend, and my first love. We never fought, and still to this day we haven't. everytime i had to leave to go back home, i would do my best to hold back the tears, because i knew how hard the distance was, but he was my everything, and id do anything for him. One day I got the phone call... he said he couldnt handle seeing me leave, it killed him inside every time, and he told me he knew it was hard on me to, he listened to me cry on the phone for 29 minutes. Everyday since that day, i still think of him. i miss what we had so much. Ive dated other people, but it never seems to last, because i end up comparing him to Brad, the only guy ive ever loved. It makes it hard because i was so close to all of his family. everytime i come to visit my family that lives by him, his mom calls me and takes me out for lunch. sometimes brad stops in and says hi. sometimes he will text me and tell me he misses me. The problem is, i dont know if he means it. hes dated and been with other girls since us. I know things couldnt work now because of distance, but when im done with all my school, i want to move there to be with my family. i cant get over him though, because everything we had was so right. and even through out the breakup he was a sweatheart to me. i think i need to forget about him, and if its meant to be, we will be together again, but i cant. I dont know if I should still wait for him? ive been trying to move on and i cant. Maybe someday we would end up together when i move were he is, but in the meantime i need to try to move on. right? if so, how do i do thiss?
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